it's easy to say than it is to do.. anyone can open their mouth and say anything but not everyone can act accordingly to what they said.. anyone can say "i can do this ..i can do that".. but the real is.. we still not sure if we r capable of doing it
and this one single thing.. it bring me the to weakest part of my self.. till im not so sure if i can pretend to be so cool about it..
sometimes,in any given days, in any minutes ,in any second.. the memories came back and keep haunting cause it never die
and for some other reason, i always have the feeling that those memory will keep germinate and soon to bloom beautifully when spring come.. n forever.. will i wait for the spring arrival? cause it might be no spring for the whole year.. perhaps, it will be a snow days.. where nothing is growing..
its a terrible feeling.. to forget.. n to know u are forgotten..
it is hard .. to not be able to be with the person u badly wanna live with..
to realizing the person will never be yours in any each ways..
its now 3.57 am.. while listening to a calmly instrumental song.. n treating my self with a cup of hot chocolate drink.. in a very quiet and peaceful night..once again.. the memories of him occupied me..
p/s : .........